« Home | Happy Valentine's to Me » Saturday, February 25, 2006Ashamed I don't know what it is, but I'm out of control this past week. I couldn't even bring myself to post because I felt I had nothing to share. Food has been my solace, and I've got to nip it in the bud. I feel ashamed.
posted by Christi Nielsen at 2:47 PM
I myself have never been able to find out precisely what a feminist is, I only know that people call me a feminist whenever I express sentiments that differentiate me from a doormat. "Well behaved women rarely make history."  |
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I'm struggling really hard this week too. Hang in there...
you took the words right out of my mouth.
my fat jeans were snug today.
No need for shame, Christi. It sends you on a downward spiral. Shame begets depression begets guilt begets depression begets shame, etc.
Smile, recognize your considerable talents and abilities, and just focus on moving forward one day (or even one part of a day) at a time.
"Always be yourself, express yourself, have faith in yourself, do not go out and look for a successfull personality and duplicate it."
-BL-
We all slip up at some point, its just human nature hun. The best you can do is recognize it and get back on track. Don't let it get you down, that'll only make it worse. And congrats on your progress so far, btw. :)
Shame is an awful thing to live with.
You are NOT alone, Christi. Nobody who has ever leaned on food for more than basic nourishment has been able to just wake up one day and say, "I will no longer use food to make me feel better" -- breaking that connection takes time and work. Part of that includes slips.
Know what kills shame? Self forgiveness.
Kills it dead like Raid.
Me too! I'm soo out of control!
When I stopped berating myself daily, and instead began celebrating myself every time I made a good choice and really reveling in that accomplishment, the negative choices started to come fewer and farther between. It was magic & I didn't even notice it happening.
Laura Bora is absolutely & incredibly right. Shame will induce paralysis. Forgiving yourself is the only antidote.
Xoxo.
I'm feeling a bit out of control myself. *sigh* Hang in there!
I don't quite know how I stumbled here but I'm glad I did. You are terrific. This place is terrific. And yes, there are those who will do anything to be thin. I lived in Malibu for 17 years, I know. At this very moment my 45 year old sister is in ICU on a respirator. The reason? Crystal meth. The reason? To be thin. She's done drugs off and on (mostly on) for 30 years and it only occured to me three days ago that while she's been treated for addictions and was once clean for 8 years, the drugs aren't the problem. The problem is she has an eating disorder. 30 years it took me to figure it out. I don't know if she will live long enough to figure it out for herself. Anyway, sorry, pretty weird and heavy for a first post. Didn't mean to be. You have so much to share and an obvious gift for sharing it. So much talent. Just amazing. Thank you.
Oh Christie, I'm sorry you're suffering this week. One day at a time, okay? If it makes you feel any better, I'll be going through hell tomorrow around 2:00. ;) New week, new beginnings. Don't beat yourself up.
Thank you all so much for your support. You made me smile. I believe it's much easier to forgive others than to forgive yourself.
Terri - I hope your sister pulls through. Thanks for sharing that.
I completely understand where you are coming from. But after the food, you must realize what is important and how can you gain control of your life.
I was feeling this way three weeks ago.
A friend helped me out of it.
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